Hello noosphere

It's been a while

Alright let’s try to do a fast one. I’ll try to cover as much territory as possible.

I’ve been doing a fasting/feasting youtube/twitter regime: a month of break, a day of binge.

In a video between Jordan Hall and Matthew Pirkowski I watched last weekend, Matthew said something akin to that the Internet collapsed all distance and basically reified the noosphere: we are all here now.

And so this morning I realized that I haven’t been giving any signals to the noosphere. Just consuming.

I feel a lot of ambivalence towards posting content online. My main motivation to do so is the desire for validation. Prestige. Power. And so I’ve been holding back. But this frame is intriguing: the noosphere is a thing, and the digital is the way to be in touch with it.

So, hello noosphere, how you been doing?

I’ve been focusing on my “real life”. On that which needs to be done, and if I don’t do, no one else will. Parenting. Visits to extended family. Work. A very long spring cleaning.

A solitary religious aspect of my life has been growing and marking my daily rhythms.

I’ve been doing some “prepping”. Bought a portable solar panel, a monster battery (an Anker Solix C1000), a starlink (Mini), a portable display. Been eyeing vans though I don’t really need one. One nice benefit: I can do homeoffice, or any of my hobbies - even cook! - in the community garden.

Been doing a lot of 3d printing (with my Bambu Lab A1) and laser cutting (with my xTool M1 Ultra), in particular stuff that’s inspired by parenting moments.

I’ve been focusing on maintaining 3 main habits:

• Sleeping between 10 and 11. I manage maybe 2/3rds of the time (or less, don’t want to check) - but I do see benefits: waking up before the alarm clock more often.

• Getting enough protein. I don’t know whether I’m reaching my target, but I generally manage the easy part, of having a protein shake in the morning and in the evening.

• 15m of movement per day. Not 100% consistent but fairly consistent. It’s a nice part of the day, I enjoy it. The past few days I’ve increased to 30m. My body really likes it. Especially thanks to the frame of “letting the body do what it wants to do”. These days it’s a lot of stretching. My goal is to get to 1 hour per day. But I’ve never managed to keep such a habit consistently — whenever I get overly ambitious I just stop — so I’m trying to be careful.

Sometimes I get that feeling that it’s all building towards something.

Sometimes I feel that I’m stuck and getting older.

I’ve been single since my separation 4 years ago.

Part of it is a choice: of taking the necessary time to sort things out, to do things right this time. To do them with integrity. And God knows I’ve had a lot of stuff to sort out. Some of which I actually managed to.

Mostly it feels like a slooooow process that can take place between a daily life that after all is quite full with chores, tasks and responsibilities.

Sometimes I fear that the feeling of progress may be an illusion.

My being is wrestling, at the deepest level, with the essence of marriage. Sex and marriage. I’ve been wrestling with this all my life (my parents divorced when I was 3, you see).

Is sex best kept within the frame of an inscindible vow?

No answer, from the secular liberal’s to the catholic religious’, seems to fully satisfy my being, neither practically, in my life, nor in principle. I feel stranded on this.

I’m worried about AGI. I’m particularly afraid of the social dynamics around this: that we aren’t capable of stopping the rush towards it.

And on that note, I have to go, bye for now, sphere dwellers.